I am psychic vampire

[Morell Sunweaver]

Or energetic vampire, what's the matter. I still consider it true vampyrism as I'm interested in blood, just on non material level. It is in fact funny as I used to fear vamps. But then one appeared as my own guide and there was no way to be in safe distance of his fangs. But in few days I realised how fine he is and got interested.

So now I am vampire myself. Transformation was wild, just as it is for human to grow to adulthood through wild hormonal misbalance. Really wild, learning how to deal with new state and needs. To deal with new energetic organs... just to know, there are fangs, Connected with tonsils, which now works in energetic as pump for sucked energy blood and from them energetic line to heart chakra, where it enters the system. Also it can go there through stomach as it is natural way too, mirroring physical.

I don't recommend it. It is deep and fascinating, but there are infinite other ways too. Important is not being cool, but being yourself.
After time I took control of it and it is only enjoyment now, just like taste for chocolate. I enjoy the hunger for blood, hissing in the dark, just like actual drinking and feeling how it enters me and slowly becomes part of me. It became enjoyment, but I had times, when I felt really burning need, looking at girl interested in her neck and veins.
I like this way of energy sharing. Of course it isn't only pros, you have to be careful on who you share energy with, who's energy you allow into yourself.