I published this article in Fate Magazine in November 1996. I’m writing the article just as it appeared back then. And I swear it’s all true!
I don’t know exactly how long I had been asleep that winter night, but I suddenly became aware of my own racing heart as well as a release of heavy perspiration. I tried desperately to grasp at some kind of conscious reality, but this dark void had taken over my sleep and I could not escape. The only real feeling my mind could absorb was that a part of me was, for some reason, terrified. But I wasn’t at all sure of the source of my terror.
Then, just as suddenly as this had begun, it ended. I became aware of an incredible lightness to my body. I traveled toward my closed bedroom door. As I reached instinctively for the doorknob, I had the strangest sensation of passing right through the door. A great sense of urgency overcame me, preventing me from even trying to reason what was taking place.
I was now heading down the hallway past the bathroom toward my combination front room, dining room, and kitchen. As I moved forward, I noticed the smoke detector with its little red light ahead of me. What was unusual about this was my ability to see it without having to look up. That was when it first occurred to me that I might be having an out of body experience.
As I entered the front room the reason for my intense fear became strikingly apparent. Looking down I saw two older teenage males moving towards me. What happened next is very difficult to put into words. I had this feeling that someone, or something, from outside of me wanted me to will myself visible to these two intruders. I must have done this because their faces took on the appearance of both disbelief and horror. Only a moment passed before they bolted for the door to my apartment with me in hot pursuit.
I saw them go out the door just before I had the sensation, once again, of passing right through it. I caught my last glimpse of them leaving the building. Then there was an intense flash, like a camera bulb going off in an otherwise dark room. Again, all that I was aware of for several moments, I really have no idea how long, was my heart beating faster then I could ever remember it beating before, and that my body was soaked in sweat.
After what seemed to be an incredibly long period of time, I was able to calm my heartbeat and open my eyes. When I finally felt that I was in control, I checked the clock at my bedside. It was four A.M. I had gone to bed at about midnight.
At this point I was feeling very disoriented, to say the least. I decided to get up, which was not an easy chore, and check my apartment.
I might have been able to convince myself that I had had some kind of lucid dream, except for one thing. When I got to the front door of my apartment, it was standing open several inches, caught on a fold in the carpet. That couldn’t have happened unless someone was in an awfully big hurry to leave through a door that I know was closed when I went to bed.
Actually Bill I think what you experienced was not you being a ghost at all, as you hadn't died at all, your still here to tell the tale..true ghosts dont actually have recalled memory...so you were either probably having a OBE [Out Of Body Experience] or also termed as Astral Planing or Astral Projection or Astral Travel...Some people dont even know they are astral planing,many youngsters for example,they havn't come to that point in recognition of anything in their teens, but the opposite sex only lol..and that's what they are up to there with every soul they come in contact with subconsciously, believe it or not, they are, I've seen them openly doing these acts up there, so when it comes into their consciousness when they get older,this is when the fear sets in, cos they recognise what they were doing in their past youth up there... but then it becomes a reality in their consciousness where as before it was unconsciousness.. if that makes sense, this is why they get infatuated in learning how to get out of body again but manifested with intent & will, not realising it scares them to feel the sensations of popping out or snapping in from outside their body and they remember and visualise what they are doing from a awake consciousness, so then their mind takes over naturally and they self sabotages their OBE attempts..they then play it safe and astral on the mental body only not the physical astral body,which is much harder to be seen by others on the plane though ,and takes much practise to turn your mental body to your astral body if that makes any sense..its exhausting too,you feel it hard when you return as your body feels like stone or in a type of paralysis state.
Lucid dreaming on the other hand is being aware of the dream state. So if you find yourself outside your body (astral projection) AND you know it is a dream, you are both astral projecting and lucid dreaming.
Not to be confused with a NDE - Near Death Experience which is when you have actually died though your silver cord hasnt been servered so your able to be revived and return to your body again.....
Having a OBE Is rather a common experience and something I do purposefully quit often. In fact many people have mastered Astral planing,and as you entered this via dream state that's how I knew what you were doing it unconsciously..
And Near Death Experiences are totally different,they are that experience of dying in this reality in your human avatar body,you actually stop breathing in other words,your heart beat stops as well... but your soul does not fully leave your light body,e.g your soul is still attached to the avatar by the silver cord, hense you dont fully pass over to any other dimensional plane of existence before reincarnating again..there is a time frame that this can happen within however.. and its been medically proven in some people who have died and been resuscitated again, that time frame can be much longer in extreme cold conditions..as the heart & internal organs & blood supply to them are slowed down & they dont deteriorate & fail as fast..
We can all astral plane though some have trouble doing it consciously,they are capable of it if they set their mind to it to vacate from the avatar before full REM sleep takes hold,..
And we all can come back to our body from doing it... cos the silver cord is not severed..so your vision on the astral plane is just that a vision,though you experienced it in a dream like state your recall of it when you came back was strong..people seem to think that Astral planing is the same as dreaming when its totally not.. its totally a different thing entirely..
Astral projection only describes the act of leaving ones body. Now you can take into account the other dimensional planes of existence into this as well,you may have heard of parallel dimensions on this 3D plane where the other you's exist..Have you ever watched the movie 'Sliders', where Jerry O’Connell and his gang jump from one alternate Earth to another, each harboring its own history but different outcomes,it's totally like that.,also Physics has proven that this actually exists..
Considering your fear and the other being that was advising/controlling you, this was definitely astral travel controlled by that being. You were terrified, when leaving body, so you were forced there, not on your own free will. But impossible for me to tell what was purpose of that all...
Yeah when one astral planes without the soul being under a protective energy shield fear is what these entities thrive on & go for, as it shines to them and just like Ravens who like shiny things they hone right in on it....all kinds of entity attachments can then take over the light body,bringing its vibration down...these can make a person get illnesses & diseases in this realm and they dont even know its where it came from....as these entity attachments can be bought back into this 3D reality infused inside of them too & they can possess a person so to say, it can make them do bad things, have bad thoughts & notions, mental illnesses,psychosis sicknesses and yes even human known debilitating diseases etc... So its best to purify your astral vehicle and set up a psychic energy shield around your whole light body, concentrate on the mental immaterial or formless realm arupa Loka planes or higher then your protected coming back into this 3D realm,and if you have managed to gain an attachment entity it will just fall off you before you get back into your avatar body... but its moreso your not likely to come into contact with any of these entity's as they cant resonate in these higher reams.