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[Saya Raven]

i have posted here yet, so i guess i ought. im saya. i go by Saya Raven in the community, or just plain saya.  ive been "awere" since i was young, finally working up the courage to enter the community at age 15. five years have passed and things have changed. i entered the community as a feline therianthrope but here i stand feeling as if im some sort of fae or elf.   i started off feeling like a housecat - soon i felt like it wasn't enough. it wasn't the right size. i moved up trying to be something bigger than im not. ive cycled through panther, wolf, cougar, some being ith black wings....even psi vampire... and it got to the point where i reached a crossroads between demon and fae. it was like a fork in the road : i for some reason believed demon. i went down this path because demon and fae share similarities but are not one and the same.  i had a dream that strange looking creatures (looked like tree/humanoid things as well as different ones but i remember one purplish/reddish thing with branch like limbs ) accompanied by one called Mab. they were pulling at me telling at me 'its time to return home". i dismissed the dream. and when i reached the same fork in the road between demon and fae for the second time i was frustrated. i sat myself on my bed and attempted to see my 'true self' and i did. it was a clear image- one i will not dismiss because it came to me so strongly. it was of a girl with honey golden hair pulled back into a bun or something aay from her face. she was pale but her head was turned so i could only see her from the side. i saw an ear though, pointed at the tip. she leaned on the tree as she climbed over the root with a hand on the trunk. she was wearing a white dress, but i can tell you the species of the tree. it isnt of one i can recall from this world. ive looked. the truck  spiraled, like the bark twisted around the entire thing. it was a light tan color, smooth. the bark wasnt rough, i think it might have had a sort of glazed look to it. 

this is the only memory ive had. i know what i look like kind of but i dont know what race. i know that when im around a large group of trees/forest i feel my ears pointed and skin is tight. i feel the energy of trees and like they speak to me with that energy, i feel like they reach to me. whatever i am is connected to trees.

does anyone have any idea what kind of fae/elves are connected to trees?

[Tara]

Saya, I do not know what is the type or name, but I know that Elven are both the trees, the beings who live in or near or with the "trees" in other dimensions (other than the 3rd dimension where we reside/the physical universe... whcih is why the Druids adn the Celtic people called it the "Other World").  You may discover your name if you spend more time there. It is very real and it is being shown to you so you will come into harmony with yourself.  Your real work, however, is to find the balance that allows you to be both whole and complete in yourself and also to show others the way, the way not to be afraid and to allow the perception and ability of multi dimensional reality to be commonplace. You are not strange or unusual and yet it is very possible there are few who can understand your position between worlds and relate. Connecting with your complete self or other aspects of your complete self can give you courage and strength to deal with those of lesser understanding or limited perceptions. Hope this helps, let me know if I need to clarify.  Love you so. Tara

[Coffee Bird]

do you feel like you are still there every time you think of that dream?

[Tara]

You are so wonderful. Yes, all Fae are children of the trees who are as gods upon the earth. As to define yourself my only question is for you if it is wholly necessary first and second can you identify the vibration and decide which speaks to your soul? As we progress beyond the third dimension, the visions become like choices and we can choose the being ness that holds our desired vibration and only as long as we wish. Shape shifting, yes. But also it is skill at managing time/space according the your wishes....

[Morell Sunweaver]

It is interesting, that you speak of demons. I'm elf and I'm sure, but it can feel strange, when I have to protect myself on astral layer, when I'm afraid, I change my mind/astral form to demonic one, fully or particulary.  Demonic energy is strong and many fear of them, but I donť thing that there are only evil demons. I met good ones. Christianity placed bad reputation on them. They are strong in magic, but only some are bad.

Honestly I wan't even surprised, that I've read that in the medieval times the elves were told to be servants of the Satan. (as every magical being... sad)

I hope you will find your harmony and peace, Saya. Love.