My beloved one has truly transmogrified. It’s too fantastic to be imagined let alone experienced. To say you love someone even more since they have passed away just seems completely upside down. And yet, its a more real choice than what passes for reality. When you step out this far it’s is evident the game is illusory. What I’m hoping for now is with this newfound knowledge to step out of the suffering, because it must be an illusion too. Let in joy.