It was never a new thing to me but it does keep getting worse and worse. I can't simply forget about love as it is who and what I am. Yet that is what causes it to hurt worse, I give all the love I can to Gaia and to those close to me yet still there is love that needs someone special to share with and that is what hurts. I have contemplated many solutions and none of them would truly help me. Maybe it is the feeling of seperation and aloneness that causes it to grow but the reason is not all that is on my mind, the solution is more of what I am seeking but I know that is me and only me that can decide what is the best method to help me.