Arbellason Marucha's Blog (8)

I've come to realize that my greatest fear in life is not finding another elven soul to spend my mortal life with, I fear this as it would require such a person to understand me and to see my true potentials. I can see there being problems with high standards such as these, the most prevalent is the honest fact that there are not many people like that and the chances of meeting such a person is slim. I stay hopeful though as hope is what will keep me going until then. I guess what I seek is…

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I feel slightly conflicted on this subject personally, on one hand I feel I need someone who is like me quiet, observing, full of passion and dreams, someone who would gladly fly through these mortal years to get back to what is truly home and on the other side is someone not too different but much less quiet, someone who wants to see what this world has yet to offer. Though not fully explained like I would prefer as I find it hard to describe what my inner self needs I compare to the calm…

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Just a little post I wanted to make to see what strange experiences people have had with animals and a spot to discuss them. My most recent experience was with a Buck (male deer for those who don't know) I was walking and when I saw it, it stomped with it's front hoof and scratched the ground several times then repeated stomping while bobbing it's head up and down. Then it backed away and ran off after 2-3 minutes.

It was never a new thing to me but it does keep getting worse and worse. I can't simply forget about love as it is who and what I am. Yet that is what causes it to hurt worse, I give all the love I can to Gaia and to those close to me yet still there is love that needs someone special to share with and that is what hurts. I have contemplated many solutions and none of them would truly help me. Maybe it is the feeling of seperation and aloneness that causes it to grow but the reason is not all… Continue

Starlight on the snowy meadows,

cold, silent, foreboding,

a million stars twinkle to their kin above,

a sea of gems, a sea of silence,

flashes without a trace of spring,

beautiful, terrifying,

yet all things must end,

the snows will yield to the spring,

life renewed will surpass even the beauty of the sea of white,

and the million stars will be no more,

to return again when life must sleep,

but of all these…

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I have found that sadness is a large part of elven history, betrayals and ruin and loss are it's main source. The eternal question of what could have been had mankind not continued it's thorough destruction of nature (which thankfully they have never been able to do completely). But anyway back to the point, this sadness is deep and complex with hurts we might never heal completely yet i find that this sadness is mingled with hope and love. So much in some cases that the sadness is left…

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Well I am in a bit of a problem. I have an elven lover, I can see her at times and she can see me. We can communicate but we are stuck in two different realms we can see into them but cannot pass into them. It tears at my heart knowing that she is the one I've been with for thousands of years yet we are denied the ability to be with each other. I was granted the ability to enter the realm she is in one day but only that day and that has torn me apart more knowing the energy I can feel. Has…

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So who else out there is fed up or appalled with mankind. They care little for things around them or other life they love little else but themselves and not even that at times.They spill their own blood for minor things that matter not. They fear what they don't know or understand they seldom try to reach their full potential. It's aggravating to me that a species can be so ignorant to what good they could do if only they tried. Now I'm not saying every single one of them is terrible. There…

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