Morell, You know what is the worst? Youare always able to justify your deeds.

[Morell Sunweaver]

This is lamment the dark one once said to me, explaining why it is difficoult to discuss my standing with me. Why I do what I do.

Some time ago I've read one of translations of the Emrald tablets. Although being texts of the light-based path, they contain real knowledge, at least some parts I can point out, are valuable for personal growing. My favourite is the thid tablet.

This is from it.

Wisdom is power and power is wisdom,
one with each other, perfecting the whole.

Be thou not proud, O man, in thy wisdom.
Discourse with the ignorant as well as the wise.
If one comes to thee full of knowledge,
listen and heed, for wisdom is all.

Keep thou not silent when evil is spoken for Truth
like the sunlight shines above all.
He who over-steppeth the Law shall be punished,
for only through Law comes the freedom of men.
Cause thou not fear for fear is a bondage,
a fetter that binds the darkness to men.

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I think that I take it bit seriously, about lies being spoken as a truth. I hate to stay silent when spiritual "so called truths" are presented as true informations. No woder it goes nowhere, or into illusions only. Seeking the truth is seeking it for yourself, being prepared to accept that you're wrong. I've been wrong many times. And I might be wrong in some things even now.

Don't consider others right just because they sound wise, not even me. Think, god damn it! Think about what you hear and read. In my coutry we have saying: trust, but check. Go under the sweet surface and take a look at the things as they trully are. Avoid pleasant auras and unpleasant fear, put them aside and look at the truth. You have a brain, expression youf your soul's ability to think, so use it, finaly.

You may not like what I say here, but that is okay, as long as you can proove me wrong. Science brought us great things, even in helping to see what is right and what is wrong. Logic can be used in spirituality as well as in science and it isn't only logic. The sientific method, deduction, and of course even with science avoided and undervalued experience.

Many here an get confused that I'm almost alergic to hear about christ consciousness and such rubbish. Why? Because Christ means king of the jews. Jews are people who are separated from the rest of humanity, they have in themselves isolation. Their king must be the best in isolating. So such consciousness cannot be anything good from this logic.

Terms might be just terms but they are conneted with all meanings they have. Jesus was no christ, that title was given to him as a humiliation. He never wanted to rule, that was fake placed on him after his death when he couldn't say a word against it.

I'm also tired of hearing about otside help for Earth. True, it is comming, but the bitter truth is that it is us and only us, who must solve our problems, they can bring advices, but cannot take controll, that is reversing back to the thimes of the dominance of the church.The spirits from space must go through human incarnation to even give good advices. And when you offer it to them, they usualy run away before you even finish such a quetion. But that is ony way thay can really help, if they relly want to. They must know how the things are to give the best advice.

So don't expect the humanity to simply change, people must want to change and work on change. hopefully they will finaly realise that being herd as a sheeps won't help, that they have to grow on their own. Hard truth.

Even harder in fact that some of the teachers herding people are saing it oppenly while they don't actualy help it at all. But to realise that people have to think first. Exact opposite of what is being taught in schools. And opposite of what they were doing through multiple lives.

Because of that, and you are open to proove me wrong, the real change of spirituality requires old generation to die out (or at least being pushed away from position of power) and new one, not listening to elders, actualy ignoring them, to take their place. I believe that this generation change must happen more than once for real change.

I know that this wasn't whatsoever loving post, but I wasn never much loving person. The most positive feeling for me was peace and calmness, stability showing I'm not needed. I won't spray anyone with love or with light. I'm darkling, I don't work such childrish way. No. I take deep into the darkness and show wisdom which makes your own light shine and even more, in darkness light shines the most. Ironicaly the darklings are very much light beings. For darkness is birthplace of any and every light.

Think, what you do when feel hurt? You hide. you hide in shadows where you're hopefuly invisible to others. When we have wounds, we cover them in bandages, another healing darkness and privacy, where wound can heal. Even womb of any woman is place of darkness, there is no light inside female belly. XD Life is created and born in darkness which gives privacy. Darkness is incredibly healing. Even on physical level for both body and spirit. Light is activity. Darkness is rest and recovery. We need both.

I'll share my experiment with meditation I've done, feel free to try it yourself, you might find it interesting, although you might feel different.

It is simple. I sat and relaxed my body, standart preparation for meditation. Once relaxed I filled my body with pure light, detroying all that is bad within my soul, burning parasites, filling myself with light fully. It felt good. Yeah, it really feels very good.

Then, filed with light I filled myself with the darkness. Darkness I alowed to swallow all that trash that remains after burning parasites, me becomming blacka s blackest dark. Darkness cannot fill you completely, my energy lines remained bright, shining like stars, nebulas, galaxies. As I was completely filled with the darkness, I saw myself like a universe, full of bright lights of life. And I felt perfect.

And onestly, the second feeling was much better than first one. But you can try it for yourself. Since it is playing with plain light and darness without any program, it cannot harm. However your spirit guides, depending on your spiritual path, can see it different and can even harm you to get you back to your rightfull place. What will you do about that is no problem of mine. True knowledge was always hidden and paid for high.

Imagination I used here, true, I don't otherwise use it much, but it has it's place.

Oh and one last information for you: True knowledge is not written anywhere. It is your own inner knowing of what is true and not. It cannot be gained from one book, but if you dig through some, if you observe the resoults, the fruit of what spiritual poeple do, their wisdom and what they think, if you learn laws of spiritual realm as well as physical, I promise you, you can gain it. And with it, you will get freedom.